Sahifa Sajjadiya 50: In Fear

Text and Translation

اللَّهُمَّ اِنَّكَ خَلَقْتَنِي سَوِيّاً، وَرَبَّيْتَنِي صَغِيراً، وَرَزَقْتَنِي مَكْفِيّاً

ALLAAHUMMA INNAKA KHALAQTANEE SAWIYYAN WA RABBAYTANEE SAGHEERAN WA RAZAQTANEE MAKFIYYAA

O God, Thou created me without fault, nurtured me when small, and provided me with sufficiency.

اللَّهُمَّ اِنِّي وَجَدْتُ فِيمَا اَنْزَلْتَ مِنْ كِتَابِكَ، وَبَشَّرْتَ بِهٖ عِبَادَكَ اَنْ قُلْتَ يَا عِبَادِيَ الَّذِينَ اَسْرَفُوا عَلَى اَنْفُسِهِمْ لَا تَقْنَطُوا مِنْ رَحْمَةِ اللَّهِ، اِنَّ اللَّهَ يَغْفِرُ الذُّنُوبَ جَمِيعاً، وَقَدْ تَقَدَّمَ مِنِّي مَا قَدْ عَلِمْتَ وَمَا اَنْتَ اَعْلَمُ بِهٖ مِنِّي، فَيَا سَوْاَتَا مِمَّا اَحْصَاهُ عَلَيَّ كِتَابُكَ

ALLAAHUMMA INNEE WAJADTU FEEMAA ANZALTA MIN KITAABIKA WA BASHSHARTA BIHEE I'BAADAKA AN QULTA YAA I'BAADIYAL LADHEENA ASRAFOO A'LAA ANFUSIHIM LAA TAQNATOO MIN RAHMATILLAAHI INNALLAAHA YAGHFIRUDH DHUNOOBA JAMEE'AN WA QAD TAQADDAMA MINNEE MAA QAD A'LIMTA WA MAA ANTA A'LAMU BIHEE MINNEE FAYAA SAW'ATAA MIMMAA AHSAAHU A'LAYYA KITAABUK

O God, I found in the Book which Thou sent down and through which Thou gave good news to Thy servants, that Thou said, O My servants who have been prodigal against yourselves, do not despair of God's mercy, surely God forgives all sins, but there has gone ahead from me what Thou knowest (and of which Thou knowest more than I)! O the shame of what Thy Book has counted against me!

فَلَوْ لَا الْمَوَاقِفُ الَّتِي اُؤَمِّلُ مِنْ عَفْوِكَ الَّذِي شَمِلَ كُلَّ شَيْءٍ لَاَلْقَيْتُ بِيَدِي، وَلَوْ اَنَّ اَحَداً اسْتَطَاعَ الْهَرَبَ مِنْ رَبِّهٖ لَكُنْتُ اَنَا اَحَقَّ بِالْهَرَبِ مِنْكَ، وَاَنْتَ لَا تَخْفَى عَلَيْكَ خَافِيَةٌ فِي الْاَرْضِ وَلَا فِي السَّمَاءِ اِلَّا اَتَيْتَ بِهَا، وَكَفَى بِكَ جَازِياً، وَكَفَى بِكَ حَسِيباً

FALAW LAL MAWAAQIFUL LATEE U'AMMILU MIN A'FWIKAL LADHEE SHAMILA KULLA SHAY'IN LA-ALQAYTU BIYADEE WA LAW ANNA AHADANIS TATAA'AL HARABA MIN RABBIHEE LAKUNTU ANAA AHAQQA BIL HARABI MINKA WA ANTA LAA TAKHFAA A'LAYKA KHAAFIYATUN FIL ARDI WA LAA FIS SAMAA'I ILLAA ATAYTA BIHAA WA KAFAA BIKA JAAZIYAN WA KAFAA BIKA HASEEBAA

Were it not for the places where I expectantly hope for Thy pardon, which enfolds all things, I would have thrown myself down [in despair]! Were anyone able to flee from his Lord, I would be the most obligated to flee from Thee! But not a secret in earth and heaven is concealed from Thee, except that Thou bringest it. Thou sufficest as a recompenser! Thou sufficest as a reckoner!

اللَّهُمَّ اِنَّكَ طَالِبِي اِنْ اَنَا هَرَبْتُ، وَمُدْرِكِي اِنْ اَنَا فَرَرْتُ، فَهَا اَنَا ذَا بَيْنَ يَدَيْكَ خَاضِعٌ ذَلِيلٌ رَاغِمٌ، اِنْ تُعَذِّبْنِي فَاِنِّي لِذٰلِكَ اَهْلٌ، وَهُوَ يَا رَبِّ مِنْكَ عَدْلٌ، وَاِنْ تَعْفُ عَنِّي فَقَدِيماً شَمَلَنِي عَفْوُكَ، وَاَلْبَسْتَنِي عَافِيَتَكَ

ALLAAHUMMA INNAKA TAALIBEE IN ANAA HARABTU WA MUDRIKEE IN ANAA FARARTU FAHAA ANAA DHAA BAYNA YADAYKA KHAADI'UN DHALEELUN RAAGHIMUN IN TU'ADHDHIBNEE FA-INNEE LIDHAALIKA AHLUN WA HUWA YAA RABBI MINKA A'DLUN WA IN TA'FU A'NNEE FAQADEEMAN SHAMALANEE A'FWUKA WA ALBASTANEE A'AFIYATAK

O God, surely Thou wouldst seek me if I flee and catch me if I run. So here I am before Thee, abject, lowly, abased. If Thou chastisest me, I am worthy of that, and it would be, my Lord, an act of justice from Thee. But if Thou pardonest me, anciently has Thy pardon enfolded me and Thy well-being garmented me!

فَاَسْاَلُكَ اللَّهُمَّ بِالْمَخْزُونِ مِنْ اَسْمَائِكَ، وَبِمَا وَارَتْهُ الْحُجُبُ مِنْ بَهَائِكَ، اِلَّا رَحِمْتَ هٰذِهِ النَّفْسَ الْجَزُوعَةَ، وَهٰذِهِ الرِّمَّةَ الْهَلُوعَةَ، الَّتِي لَا تَسْتَطِيعُ حَرَّ شَمْسِكَ، فَكَيْفَ تَسْتَطِيعُ حَرَّ نَارِكَ، وَالَّتِي لَا تَسْتَطِيعُ صَوْتَ رَعْدِكَ، فَكَيْفَ تَسْتَطِيعُ صَوْتَ غَضَبِكَ

FA-AS'ALUKALLAAHUMMA BIL MAKHZOONI MIN ASMAA'IKA WA BIMAA WAARAT-HUL HUJUBU MIN BAHAA'IKA ILLAA RAHIMTA HAADHIHIN NAFSAL JAZOO'ATA WA HAADHIHIR RIMMATAL HALOO'ATAL LATEE LAA TASTATEE'U HARRA SHAMSIKA FAKAYFA TASTATEE'U HARRA NAARIKA WAL LATEE LAA TASTATEE'U SAWTA RA'DIKA FAKAYFA TASTATEE'U SAWTA GHADABIK

So I ask Thee, O God, by Thy names stored in Thy treasury and Thy splendour masked by the veils! If Thou hast no mercy upon this anxious soul and these uneasy, decaying bones - he cannot endure the heat of Thy sun, so how can he endure the heat of Thy Fire? He cannot endure the sound of Thy thunder, so how can he endure the sound of Thy wrath?

فَارْحَمْنِيَ اللَّهُمَّ فَاِنِّي امْرُؤٌ حَقِيرٌ، وَخَطَرِي يَسِيرٌ، وَلَيْسَ عَذَابِي مِمَّا يَزِيدُ فِي مُلْكِكَ مِثْقَالَ ذَرَّةٍ، وَلَوْ اَنَّ عَذَابِي مِمَّا يَزِيدُ فِي مُلْكِكَ لَسَاَلْتُكَ الصَّبْرَ عَلَيْهِ، وَاَحْبَبْتُ اَنْ يَكُونَ ذٰلِكَ لَكَ، وَلٰكِنْ سُلْطَانُكَ اللَّهُمَّ اَعْظَمُ، وَمُلْكُكَ اَدْوَمُ مِنْ اَنْ تَزِيدَ فِيهِ طَاعَةُ الْمُطِيعِينَ، اَوْ تَنْقُصَ مِنْهُ مَعْصِيَةُ الْمُذْنِبِينَ

FARHAMNIYALLAAHUMMA FA-INNIM RU'UN HAQEERUN WA KHATAREE YASEERUN WA LAYSA A'DHAABEE MIMMAA YAZEEDU FEE MULKIKA MITHQAALA DHARRATIN WA LAW ANNA A'DHAABEE MIMMAA YAZEEDU FEE MULKIKA LASA'ALTUKAS SABRA A'LAYHI WA AHBABTU AN YAKOONA DHAALIKA LAKA WA LAAKIN SULTAANUKALLAAHUMMA A'ZAMU WA MULKUKA ADWAMU MIN AN TAZEEDA FEEHI TAA'ATUL MUTEE'EENA AW TANQUSA MINHU MA'SIYATUL MUDHNIBEEN

So have mercy upon me, O God, for I am a vile man and my worth is little. Chastising me will not add the weight of a dust mote to Thy kingdom. Were chastising me something that would add to Thy kingdom, I would ask Thee for patience to bear it and would love for it to belong to Thee; but Thy authority, my God, is mightier, and Thy kingdom more lasting, than that the obedience of the obeyers should increase it or the disobedience of the sinners diminish it!

فَارْحَمْنِي يَا اَرْحَمَ الرَّاحِمِينَ، وَتَجَاوَزْ عَنِّي يَا ذَا الْجَلَالِ وَالْاِكْرَامِ، وَتُبْ عَلَيَّ، اِنَّكَ اَنْتَ التَّوَّابُ الرَّحِيمُ

FARHAMNEE YAA ARHAMAR RAAHIMEENA WA TAJAAWAZ A'NNEE YAA DHAL JALAALI WAL IKRAAMI WA TUB A'LAYYA INNAKA ANTAT TAWWAABUR RAHEEM

So have mercy upon me, O Most Merciful of the merciful! Show me forbearance, O Possessor of majesty and munificence! And turn toward me, Surely Thou art Ever-turning, All-compassionate!